so i've finally decided that i'm done here. moving! where to; undecided.

got pissed off with the pop-up ads with cbox, so i've moved. spam me please, the tagboard's really empty.

went shopping today and blew $23 on 2 cds and a bracelet. pretty happy with them.

the bracelet was supposed to be $8.90, but i when i went to pay for it, i found out that it was on offer! $7.15! such a warm and fuzzy feeling when you find out that something's cheaper than what you thought it was. GSS ROCKS. =)

sort of cheered up my mood, cause was emoing again yesterday. i miss nad and hui. again. they're on my wallpaper now, haha, to remind me to go out with them soon. ECP! WITH MEL TOO!

so many planned trips to ecp coming up. church people are going on sat, and then date with the girls there (sometime) and i'm also planning to go there one of the days next week by myself. sheesh, i think i'll get sick of that place haha.

*note: there, hanrui. happy?

6:08 PM


yup. i'm finally getting down to blogging about the concert. when i rightly should be studying for maths, might i add.

concert's over.

right after the concert, i was going crazy taking pictures with random people. i realised that this choir isn't turning out to be a choir anymore, but a band of friends. which is quite sad in a way. i guess the music just isn't the main highlight anymore, which makes it all the more sadder. like weiwei said before the concert, it doesn't matter we sound good anymore, it's about enjoying what we sing. sad. i somehow think he means that we don't sound very good. lol.

kind of sad that i couldn't have done more to help the juniors, but i am in absolutely no position to do so anyway.

heard that they may not be going for SYF next year, but going overseas. again very sad, because along comes a chance to get back to gold we lost last year, but looks like its not going to happen.

sad once again, because monday might be the last time i sing in a choir. haven't really made up my mind on whether to go for consort, because of church commitments. so yeah, in a way, it's up to me whether i'll continue singing. want to, but well, conflicting feelings.

decisions decisions. but oh well. for now i'm more happy that choir has stopped. withdrawal symptoms are surprisingly little.
6:37 PM


today was kind of eventful, in a way.

my nose bled during maths lecture. something which hasn't happened since primary 2, might i point out. i hope this means i'm getting sick, because i love mcs. well who doesn't.

i got to see people dissecting pig foetuses. well it wasn't really the dissecting which was interesting, more of the decapitation of the foetuses which were downright gross. yucks.

and then on the bus home there was this old guy who asked to borrow my phone.

at first i thought he was going to take it and run off with it or something since he was closer to the door than me, but no, it was genuine. he thanked me after that and even shook my hand, and offered to pay for the call. then he rambled on about how he needed to call his daughter. who was adopted, might i add. told you he rambled.

i was never one for talking to strangers, but since he wanted to talk i couldn't possibly stop him. so i just smiled.

well he was really very nice, i don't know why i had the impression at first that once my phone landed in his hands i'll never get it back. tsk, i should so stop being a skeptical singaporean.

he totally made my day lah. =)
8:23 PM


i have no idea what i'm doing here when i have twelve reading logs to do. wasted the whole weekend away, yet again.

frankly, i can't stand being in the choir now. i just feel so disconnected, and i seem to be finding fault with everything that the comm does.

how they work really pisses me off. how they treat the alumni really sucks. how they seem to reject help from the alumni sounds really stupid.

i think at this point, the alumni's working so much harder than the comm in trying to settle the whole situation. yes, the comm is working, but they're not thinking far enough. all they are concerned about is how to get this concert over and done with, and not about the later generations at all. i would even go as far as to call them selfish at this point.

i don't know, maybe they have some grand scheme waiting to be put into action after the concert. highly doubt it though, because after waiting for so long, everyone's reaction over the whole situation fizzles out, and then all the j1s will just be left in this sticky situation whereby they want to move out off, but they don't really know how to proceed, because they don't know anything at all.

the alumni wants to help, comes up with a plan, BUT NO ONE IS WILLING TO LISTEN, AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. and then i expect that when the concert is over, the comm'll probably just go like 'oh we did it by ourselves what, we don't need help from other people'. okay, this is my overactive imagination at work, but this kind of is the attitude they seem to be protraying about this whole matter now. well, at least to me lah.

i'm sure the comm is infallible.

i heard they wanted to refuse one of the basses to sing, not because he's not part of the school, but because he goes flat at times. oh it's not matthew, (of course it isn't) i think the guy's name is linjia, but i'm not sure. anyway, i was thinking, since you want to kick those out who cannot sing, might as well just make this concert a choir comm concert. i think it'll suit you guys better.

i have another thing to rant about, but i think this is all that's going to go up today. this was just a post which had to go up, because, in short, i am pissed off.
8:53 PM


today didn't feel like saturday at all, more like tuesday, because yesterday felt like monday, owing to the labour day holiday.

next holiday to look forward to:
JUNE HOLS.

yayyness, i can't wait.

econs seems to be looking more and more foreign to me after i attempted mugging it today. grr, it was such a pain man.

after that, got dragged out to look for dresses because serena ps-ed tomorrow's plans with me. very irritating, because i was already at the bus stop at my place, and then with one phone call, i had to go all the way back to tampines.

SUPER PISSED OFF.

but oh well, at least we found something. but it costs like 40 bucks! blah.
10:27 PM


yes, i've spent too much at k last night. hahahaha. oh well, at least we had fun at some points. =)

like jiayi said, we'll just laugh it off and laugh at each other on friday about each of us being broke. lololol.

$2 a day! we can do it!

trained home last night, ended up reaching home about 1230. yes, the three of us do have our limits, and we left in time to catch the trains back to the east. lucky enkee got chauffered. blah!
2:13 PM


i guess this entry is only dedicated to one person. read on if you want to, but don't fret if you can't make any sense of it. sorry to hanrui who has been waiting lol.

yes, i have read the post.

if the saga with mr ali has taught me one thing, it is to be calm and rational in such situations.

what am i looking to achieve if i lash back out? maybe to piss this person off as much as this person pissed me off.

but at the end of the day, i still want to keep this friend, even if it's only till the end of this year, at the very least.

so this is the only response i'm going to give up to this point.

let's cross our fingers and hope it ends well.
2:05 PM