so i've finally decided that i'm done here. moving! where to; undecided.

i've been thinking.

i keep saying that the people around me are changing. but are they actually? maybe not i guess. maybe it's just something inside of them that i haven't seen before. as time passes, we get to see the other side of people. maybe that's why friendships aren't long-lasting. because once it peaks, the only way it can go is downhill. but i believe in exceptions.

maybe people don't change, they evolve slowly because the people around them affect them, and make an impact in their lives. they learn from mistakes. isn't that what life is about in the first place? learning from your mistakes. so that they don't make the same mistake again. doesn't that apply to friendships too?

eg. someone you trusts hurts you badly. you swear never to belive anything this person says again. you've learnt never to trust this person again.
so in this case, you have learnt from your mistake. don't trust this person. but also because of this, your attitude towards this person changes. or should i say evolve. and also because of this, you lose a dear friend. i wonder if you'd regret. because i think i would.

then there's hiding your emotions from people. i don't think it's fair if someone were to put on an act in front of people. you'd never ever get the 'full package' of this person because you never ever get to see the real thing. maybe half the time you'd be guessing 'what the hell is this person thinking?!'

you offer all you can give to this person. but you don't know what this person is actually thinking deep down. because you don't really know who this person is. they say that there are two sides to every story. but what's wrong with expressing your emotions? wouldn't it be better for people to accept you as who you are, and not who they think you are? just say what you want to say lah.

ignore my nonsensical blabbering. i think the lack of sleep is getting to me.
7:08 PM