so i've finally decided that i'm done here. moving! where to; undecided.

once again, that feeling is back.
i'm drifting further and further away from TAG again.

i don't know why, it just seems to be a thought hidden right at the back of my head. it just pops out whenever it wants to.

and i have to admit, i've been thinking alot more about bLiTz and all our crappy practices these days. and when melissa called me just now, i was so tempted to go over to her place immediately. but due to unforseen circumstances (like the choreograph i still haven't mastered *i tried! i really did!*), i couldn't. so sorry.

so back to my topic: i'm feeling more and more distant from TAG. the thought was constantly nagging at me yesterday at TAG practice. i simply felt myself drifting off to lalaland.

sometimes i wonder if TAG would be better off without me. as in, a closer bonded group. seems to me like i'm always the 'troublemaker' in some way.

i do enjoy singing. but what's the point if i don't enjoy singing with people who like singing with me to? not refering to anyone, just that it feels abit pointless at this moment. not that i don't like singing with you TAG people, TAG just feels very dead now. for me, at least.

this may dampen the mood for you TAG people out there. you might be thinking: 'what's this idiot thinking posting something like that one day before performance?!' or you might not. u might just go 'i don't care.' well, i just want to get this off my chest.

and although it was said before that sec fours in TAG don't retire, henry has proven all of us wrong. i've decided to leave after carolling.

i'm truly sorry if this spoils your day/night.
8:45 PM