so i've finally decided that i'm done here. moving! where to; undecided.

i went for church today.

honestly, before this, i didnt really believe. now, my heart feels alot lighter after service. shall not elaborate. but will promise to make time to go often. whee!

and i got into the church choir. singing soprano. oh heck. why did i even try.
6:00 PM


TAG has sorta lost its appeal for me.
i dont care about TAG anymore.

i mean, its like, even if TAG were to disappear now, i dun care. even if yesterday was the last day of TAG, i dun care.
ok maybe i do.

but my commitment to TAG is really dwindling. i sorta dread dragging myself to TAG practice nowadays. oh wells. cant be helped.
maybe i should quit, i ask myself.

then i realised that perhaps i shouldn't do this on impulse. but then again, i think no one would care.
who cares?

i wanna know how the other TAG people feel about me.
am i that insignificant?

someone tell me what to do.
someone tell me please.
10:42 AM


today kinda rocked. i missed days like today. y cant there be more of todays? oh well, cuz it'll then become the same as any other day. do i make sense?

anyway, today was nice. i didnt get scolding in chinese class, i went for choir, and then i went out. with melissa and daolin and melissa's stead. yayy!

they kinda feel closer to me than TAG is. which is partly why i feel like quitting. not that TAG is not nice or anything (u guys are a really good bunch of people, believe me), its juz that i feel more at ease with blitz. i feel more myself. dunno how to explain, i guess its juz the atmosphere. TAG is juz singing for the sake of singing. blitz is more like a gathering with friends to sing.

oh and today was racial harmony. i wore some indian thing which i still havent found out wad its called.

anyway, this was a short conversation in KFC:
me to daolin: we should start a mashed potato fan club.
melissa to me: i wanna join!
daolin to melissa: of course u'll be in. ur the mascot wad.

haha!
10:39 PM


nth much in my life has been interesting these days. so i didnt bother to blog.

since last time, my life has returned to its same old mundane lifestyle.
it kinda sucks.

anyway, sobs. desperate housewives has ended its run on channel 5.

i'm thinking of quitting TAG.
9:07 PM


2nd post of the nite. cuz im not able to concentrate on my ss.

it sometimes makes me wonder why im so forgettable. as in like, really really REALLY forgettable. and den i wonder if i'll always be forgettable, all my life. *wonders* cuz it sometimes really gets on my nerves.

i dun geddit. its like, about 5 times in half a month im forgotten from a big group of ppl whom remember everyone else but me. it gets sickening.

or maybe i juz remember being forgotten more than being remembered. i dunno.

or maybe i should juz learn how to make more lasting impressions.
11:08 PM


damn! TAG got second yesterday! i dunno whether to be happy or sad.

but im definitely happy for ryan!
like, he got THE best vocal percussionist award! and outbeat all the other percussionists from the open category! wtf!

haiz. now that competition is over, i have to chiong ss. holy shit!and i still cant find links.

fcuk.

anyway, im proud of myself. i lasted the whole of yesterday night. in a MINISKIRT.
5:30 PM


yayy! im at huiwen house again.

and, of course, TAG competition is today. im over the moon. whee!

i want TAG to win. so that even if im forced to quit TAG this year, i can say that i did something right in TAG. seems strange that we're going for competition today, cuz we dun seem to have practised for very long. about 2 to 3 weeks i think. that's like a record time lah.

anyway, melissa forgot about the competition today. i knew it! so i called to remind her juz now. hope she can come lah. cuz next year (hopefully) blitz can be ready to take part!

denise bought me a skirt. wow. thanx denise!

i got new cloth(es)!
2:07 PM


burning the kao lak cds now. i have everything, except cd covers. i dun have any of them.

anyway, i missed AI juz now. so irritating. bah.

balloon day today. kinda crap lah. haiz. wanted to watch initial D today, but no one else was with me. sad case.

its taking very long to burn! shit.

fcukers should get the hell outta my life.
10:58 PM


'balls get stuck in small places'
that's what mervyn said, not me.

anyway, im at huiwen house now. all the guys went home already, and the girls are playing twister.

we had TAG practice juz now, kinda short achelli, den we started playing oredy. so dumb rite? haha. so TAG lah.

i hate short skirts.
9:06 AM


oh man.

here i go missing blitz again.

when are we EVER free to EVER have practice?!

shit.
1:12 PM